Hello everyone,
Today I finally decided something. Or more like, I realized something. I am a young teenager with a great, big, fantastic future before me. I just let everyday, pass by me like a movie but what if, what if suddenly my life is over. Once a man said, 'Live your life like it's the last one' but I never really understood what he meant by that. In my third year of middle school I had an accident with a car. I wanted to cross over the street and the walking light was green so, I walked. But a car didn't see me. And so, I got crashed with it. When I opened my eyes again, I was laying on the street. The first thing in my head was that I needed to pick up my bike and gather my stuff together so cars could drive past me. Than I felt this something in my leg and it really hurt. So, I cried. Suddenly a woman came to me and stood me by. She helped me all the way and I was really grateful to her. But when I came down to earth again, I realized I wasn't hurt in any way.
At that moment I must have understood what that man meant with those words but I didn't. My mother always says that there is an angel on my shoulder that will help me through everything in my life. So, today again I felt it. That little touch of something in my heart. Something that picks me up when I am down or in trouble. So I am really thankful for that.
There is this girl in my class and she thinks she has a depression. She thinks, life is hard and that her life doesn't make any difference in this world. So, somehow I couldn't understand that. Because, If you live your life well and try to live it the way you want, why would you think you don't make a difference? I should have said that if you want to be living as someone who will make a difference, why don't you try to make one then? Because I am not smart enough? or not pretty enough? Why don't you try it another way then with you talents and creativity?
Today, I learned about peace. Peace in my hart, my mind and my life. I can live my life they way I want with all it's people and differences. With all it's difficult troubles and hard times. So, I am going to make a change today. Not for the people around me but for me. I am going to gather all my courage and sing in front of 15 people that are going to make a difference in my life.
As some people know, I can't speak very well. I have some difficulties with words and so, my speaking isn't always good. I stutter allot or forget the words I want to say. That is because in my past I had almost no friends and was always left alone. The only thing I did was: write, draw and sing. So it's sometimes hard for me to not get upset with people who laugh at me while I try my best to pronounce the right words. To my friend, who is reading this. Don't treat me different then before, I just wanted you to know because you are someone I trust. I guess you already noticed that I am trying to speak my thoughts and feelings to you. I am sorry if this was something you feel uncomfortable with but this is something I have to do to make a change in my life.
Today's inspirational song, called: The Call.
Have a good night!
xxx Anouk.